Just Life, As I See It..

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Thu, 23 May 2013 15:52:49 -0400

"Beyond his silence, there is a past. Beyond her dreams, there is a feeling. Beyond hope, there is a..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 02:37:50 -0400

“Beyond his silence, there is a past. Beyond her dreams, there is a feeling. Beyond hope, there is a memory. Beyond their journey, there is a love.”

- Million Dollar Baby (2004)

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Mon, 20 May 2013 21:33:09 -0400

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Sun, 19 May 2013 14:08:28 -0400

Passion is the source of our finest moments; the joy of love,...

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:10:26 -0400

Passion is the source of our finest moments; the joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we’d know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank… without passion, we’d be truly dead

Angelus (BTVS. Passion: S 2.17)

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Wed, 15 May 2013 00:11:20 -0400

You matter. You are valued. You are important.

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:09:36 -0400

Thank you so very much anon! You made me smile and I appreciate you so very much. All the same back to you, from the bottom of my heart.. I mean it!; I hope your doing well.. much love to you <3

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Mon, 13 May 2013 22:40:16 -0400

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Mon, 13 May 2013 01:20:53 -0400

Days go by..

Mon, 13 May 2013 01:15:49 -0400

The things, I’m experiencing physically lately are very much outside of of my control, so I want to document my thoughts for those who may draw strength from my words or the at least have the ability to relate to the experience as I don’t want anyone else who could relate.. to have to feel alone..Woke up this morning, with the chronic pain in my abdomen area.. once again relentless.. <— interesting to say this morning, seeing how I didn’t sleep much.. yet again. As my body was screaming at me and the pain, so severe I felt nauseous and running a fever again (Yet, no medical professional can say definitively why all this is happening.. so frustrating) It takes, a great amount of strength to.. find a reason to drag myself out of bed on days like these, but I have to find it… I have to keep going, I want to be the inspiration for you. Although there are days when, I feel miserable, I’ve never stopped and I try.. to never let on, that it’s.. that bad.

What makes, a given day so difficult sometimes is that pain.. will dictate your emotions and lead to negative thoughts if u let it. Sometimes, it’s so severe.. that it becomes all you think about. Its imperative, that u find something to focus on for survival. In many cases.. I think about helping someone else or the positive texts or messages I get from all of you/other friends.I still, think about Melissa (My heart.. misses her so much) Other times, I think about Taylor Swift and her music.. even though, we don’t know one another.. her music carries me through and it makes everything feel better, as she’s a hero to me.. period. Most of all, I think about purely wanting to live.. I do not want to be defeated and I will push forward, until I cannot do it any longer.

My day.. often one pain pill after another, split apart in timed increments, just trying to breath till the next moment of relief. Imagine.. as you normally can do whatever you want in a day, but when dealing with severe pain that comes and goes at its leisure.. you must, divide up your activities in such a way that your body is in control of what and how long you can do.. this or that. Not only, is this physically taxing on your body, but mentally demanding overall.. a never ending cycle of uncertainty.. will it strike again tomorrow or will I, have a good day? It’s been a week now, since I was in the Emergency Room and I’m still wearing my bracelet.. I keep it on, as a reminder of how bad, it really had gotten.. but, I’m thankful that I survived and I hope, the description of my fight helps give you strength in yours.. Your not alone.

^ I like to draw eyes.. they’re my favorite thing to bring...

Sat, 11 May 2013 02:20:40 -0400

^ I like to draw eyes.. they’re my favorite thing to bring to life on paper

"Do not let your fire go out, sparked by irreplaceable spark. And the hopeless swamps of the not..."

Fri, 10 May 2013 23:34:00 -0400

“Do not let your fire go out, sparked by irreplaceable spark. And the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish. And lonely frustration for the life you deserved but never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. And it is yours.”

- Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill)

I think scars are like battle wounds - beautiful, in a way....

Thu, 09 May 2013 01:10:07 -0400

I think scars are like battle wounds - beautiful, in a way. They show what you’ve been through and how strong you are for coming out of it.

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Tue, 07 May 2013 23:12:13 -0400

Someone here loves you, stay strong and keep fighting.

Mon, 06 May 2013 22:15:47 -0400

Thank you so very much.. whomever u are, I can’t express how much I truly needed to hear your words and they mean the world to me. Please know, they do not go unnoticed or unappreciated at all, as they genuinely make my heart smile.. All the love and more back to you as well <3

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Sun, 05 May 2013 23:15:53 -0400

“On a more serious note, even though i love joking around with...

Sat, 04 May 2013 23:29:45 -0400

“On a more serious note, even though i love joking around with you guys and i have so much fun, i want to talk about a period in my life where i had to go through obstacles that i never thought that i could get through. There’s people that i met today that come up to me who struggle with those same issues and i know that there are so many of you out there tonight that are struggling from the same issues i did - with bullying, eating disorders, self harm, depression and i want you guys to know that because you stayed strong for me, i was able to get through it and that, i can never repay you guys. You guys are my life. Thank you for being able to stay strong.”

Make it stop..

Thu, 02 May 2013 23:53:00 -0400

Tired of this constant pain and taking steroids.. which ends up making a person who already feels bad about themselves.. feel even worse and the thoughts that come along with depressive feelings is NOT at all a good combination.. because u think things that are terrible.. and don’t know, what you could be capable of to yourself. I’ve tried.. desperately.. to not give in to them, I need someone =[

^ Please help find Jessica Heeringa; She was taken from Exxon...

Wed, 01 May 2013 13:04:44 -0400

^ Please help find Jessica Heeringa; She was taken from Exxon Mobil gas station not too far from my home on April 26th and has yet to be found or returned home. If you would.. please reblog this post in hopes to spread the word about her disappearance, which may aid in her safe return.. PLEASE REBLOG this could be anyones daughter, sister, mother, ect.

"As we advance in life it becomes more and more difficult, but in fighting the difficulties the..."

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 02:25:05 -0400

“As we advance in life it becomes more and more difficult, but in fighting the difficulties the inmost strength of the heart is developed”

- Vincent Van Gogh